Most of my readers do not know me personally, so to say this on my blog, seems pretty pseronal. I mean, I haven’t been unemployed for probably 4 years now. Maybe even longer. For me, unemployment means no money, no freedom, boredom, nothing to do.. I don’t know. I somehow love keeping myself busy, at all times. Say, right now, I have 3 jobs.. and I have my current job (in which I actually just changed jobs, but thats another story), I work for my dad at his restaurant – pretty much.. at least 3-4 nights a week and I honestly consider blogging/youtubing a job. I mean, for the amount of hours I spend on this blog and my youtube channel, I could have probably earnt thousands on my day job already!

Anyways, so.. unemployment.. seems really far away to me. I mean, I was actually very close to being unemployed a month or two ago. My boss had stopped paying me due to his lack of income from his business, and I was only living off pocket money my parents had been giving me because I was working for them so much.. and trust me, that wasn’t alot.

I’m used to earning a lot of money, and ever since I was 14, I started to work. I started first at a pharmacy and was sharing a job with my sister. My sister actually studied Science/Medicine-like for her degree so the job was very important for her. During her HSC, she wanted to keep her job, so she had asked me to fill in for her until she was able to work again. Ofcourse, the boss had also agreed that it would be fine because my sister was such a great worker and assumed her sister wouldn’t be any less of one. :)

After that job, I moved onto marketing jobs, which were temporary jobs but I basically stood around Car Washing places and handed out newsletters and other stuff. I earnt so much money working on the weekends and basically just stood or even sat around doing nothing, or at most, talking to people.

And then I moved onto telemarketing, which was one crazy job and most people don’t survive it for long. I was working for a job-searching website, so most of the calls were B2B (business-to-business) so it wasn’t too difficult. I didn’t get extremely rude hang-ups and most people were actually really grateful that I was calling them! I wouldn’t do telemarketing ever again though, just because you wake up and fall sleep saying “Good Morning, my name is Janice and I’m calling from…”.

It eventually drives you crazy! But surprisingly, I always made it to one of the top, and several times the top sales of the week!! :)
Telemarketing was great because you get an awesome pay, have 4-hour shifts and so many people working with you. It’s a place to meet new friends, although they might all be competing with you to get the top sales :P
Money was extremely good as well. They normally pay a base rate and have comission on top and for my job at least, we got mini prizes for being the top 3 sales! They were usually $20 gift cards to Coles or whatever, but these three things kept me very motivated to continue working!

After 4 months of that though, I just couldn’t do it anymore and most of the crew I knew moved on.. so, so did I. I ended up moving to do data-entry at a well-known escalator company. Yeh, they.. operate escalators and lifts, etc. It was a huge company, so I didn’t actually ever get to meet the boss. It was really exciting because no one at the company really cared what you were doing (though I was only a casual, so I didn’t get access to the internet).. and I could stay in the kitchen for an hour without getting into trouble. I loved working there!

Except… time passed and I started to be able to do the work with my eyes closed. No literally. There was no excitement in the job what-so-ever and I felt like I was memorising my maths all over again. You know? I already knew exactly what to do and how to do it each time I went into work. I hated that feeling. I needed change.

So after that 1.5 years of boringness, I moved on. I wanted to do something I was actually interested in, so I got into an tax accounting firm. It was a very small firm and everything and everyone was extremely… unformal. I was very surprised. Most of the workers there were underpaid and given a shxtload of work to do. In my position, actually being a “junior tax accountant”, I actually had to do a whole lot of filing and outbound calls. I almost felt like a telemarketer once again!

I made so many calls each day to chase up clients for their details, for their payslips, for their payment summaries… urgh. I hated it. The filing also drove me crazy and I was almost going to get the boss to start paying for my manicures! :(

Okay, so then, (yes, my job history is long), I left the company, like most of the others, and I worked at my last job. It is a surfing company, in which was going through the design/marketing process when I was there. I was a marketing/PR assistant and was promoted to be the manager. I basically added information into the website every day for half a year until the site launched, and then I started to do all the promotional work, such as sending out newsletters, contacting companies to make “customised” t-shirts and other stuff to send out to all our subscribers, etc.etc. Think of wikipedia, I was like the data-entry person behind a site like that. I used to sit in the office researching and researching about surf spots, countries, islands, etc, just so I could write a paragraph on it!

I actually enjoyed it though, I had a great team and it was really fun working with everyone! And my boss was heaps awesome! But then, the financial crisis hit, and no one was willing to spend money on anything. Our site was more of a luxury good, rather than a need. I mean, it doesn’t sell chairs or tables, it sells memberships for the website and surf wax! We weren’t able to make as much revenue as we thought we could of…

So then I recently decided to move on since I had been there for 2 years already.. and I moved to this company in which I’m working for at the moment. I only started a few days ago so it’s really really exciting! I’m a finance assistant.. so I’m getting trained on everything from Risk Portfolios and Investments and Financial planning.. it’s just all really exciting!

As you can tell from my job history, I’m always on the freaking computer. LOL

Anyway, so the point to that whole life story, is that.. I’ve almost never, at one point of my life since I was 14.. been unemployed…. and unemployed in economic terms meaning “not actively seeking for a job”.

As of late, I’ve seen so many people around me either lose their jobs or resign from their jobs. I mean, I know that the job market has now picked up and its much easier to look for a new job, but for me, I find it very upsetting, or even scary when I see someone leave. Not just from my job, but even their own. I think its because I imagine myself.. being so unoccupied.. I honestly couldn’t think of what else I could do with my time! I’m happy for those who resign and move onto another job, maybe somewhere better, but for those, who remain unemployed, I get so worried.

In my office, I’ve seen about 8 people leave the company already and sometimes, another one would come and replace them, and then they’ll leave also. I’m someone whose scared of… change… and I always think back about the past, and about the people who were in the office with me, and miss the times they were here.

I’m so scared of unemployment, and it’s not just because I’m a big spender (hehe), I think it’s because I need that security, that financial security. I want to know that even if any happens, I can always depend on myself and my job. And, I think that’s what most people have their jobs for, right?

I know that was alot to read, but it’s just something thats been on my mind.

I’d like to know what your thoughts are.. are you employed? Are you actively seeking a job? Are you crazy about having a job like me?

Sorry about the lack of updates! I haven’t been super busy, but my internet has been capped! :(

I promise to update really soon! I have so many things I want to blog about!! So keep watching this space…. *big smile.

For more frequent updates, you can follow me on Twitter cause I’m crazy about it ;)

I have quite a few friends whom I know, name their electronics. For a whole year or so, I’ve always been like “WHAT? what the hell? Like honestly?” But I take that all back now, I actually kinda think its cute.

So I’m going to introduce you guys to Zena, whom Mr.CG named after Zena the Warrior Princess.. and that is Zena the Olympus E-PL1, my newest baby. So, I hear you guys calling me crazy, another camera, yeh yeh, I’ve heard it all before. But, I recently sold off my Canon Ixus and really wanted to get compact camera with video recording so I could do proper videos for you guys, rather than shooting with a freaking webcam.

I go so frustrated with finding “the perfect webcam” to shoot my youtube videos, that I figured that I better just get used to filming with cameras instead! And btw, thanks for asking, but it’s worked out fine. :)

Anyway, enough with the chit chat, and let me show you pictures of my new toy (it’s actually not that “new” anymore. I purchased it a day or two before I went to New Zealand, which is about 1-2 weeks ago now)

This baby is the much raved about camera on blogs such as Xiaxue and Cheeserland.

I actually just purchased the camera with the set lens, which is the 14-42mm, so there’s nothing spectacular about it at all. And if you’re eyes all opened about the bling, girl, you mustn’t be on my blog enough.

It didn’t take me long to deco this camera at all, I had a set design, and I used all the things I had at home to deco it. I used swarovski crystals left over from my Canon Ixus so if you’re wondering which ones they are, just do a quick search on “Canon Ixus” on my blog.

For my design, I actually used more crystals than just the average round ones. I also got a 3D purple swarovski heart and a swarovski cross charm which actually cost me AU$180. My sister went nuts at me after she saw it on my camera!

Oh well, what do you expect from a deco-freak like me :)

I adore the design, but I wish I had a little more time to plan it. I was heading to New Zealand in a few days so I really only had about half a day to finish it.

I love this camera because it’s so compact and has a little cute flash which pops up when you need it. Without the lens, its only really as big as the average digital camera you find on the markets these days.

It also comes with soo many amazing art filters which makes the camera so so so much fun to use! The quality of the photos is just as amazing as my Canon 450D and it only comes in half the size! ♥

I adore it to pieces.

Anyhow, so I thought I’d make a quick update.

What are your study essentials? Here’s mine.

#1. Werther’s Originals. I love eating when I’m studying – “this is why you’re fat, this is why you’re fat”.. okay, I hear it, whatever. I’m an emotional eater, badly. So what? :P

#2. Pencil case, I mean, duh. Gotta use up all ‘em pretty pens and pencils! <3 Why have a crazy obsession with buying pens, when you’re never gona use ‘em, right?

#3. Liquid Paper. Man, oh man, do I need this little baby? I make a crazy amount of mistakes. You know? I’m the type of girl who writes what they hear, so if I’m writing, and you talk to me, I’ll write what you’re saying! wtf! Don’t talk to me!

#4. Headband! I freakin’ love headbands when it comes to staying at home. They are my number one cannot live without at home. I hate havin’ my fringe in the way when I’m studying! And that headband I bought from Chinatown markets, it was I think, $20? Salvatore Ferrogamo inspired! daaaaaaaaaaaymmmm.. just kiddin :P It saids “Fashion” on it, and is made in China (i think). LOL

#5. My glasses. I hate wearing contacts when I’m studying cause my eyes are wide awake yo! And wearing contacts, especially circle lenses dry up my eyes like craazzzy! So I bring out my glasses ;D Probably one of the only times I ever use ‘em.

Comment yours below! Love you’s.

Now, since I’m all relieved, I’m going to take a break from all the stress (blog + studies) and make a post!

I mentioned in my last post that I was going to post up these pictures of me and one of my best friends.

Camwhore

This is probably one of the only times you guys have seen my hair curled! I’m experimenting with it since you guys keep asking for hair tutorials. haha! I don’t normally do much to my hair since I’m trying to grow it.

My girl just dyed her hair. You guys like? We used to be like twins.. with our blonde hair….

I’m wearing NYX’s Strawberry Milk and she’s wearing Revlon’s Soft Nude. We bought it together in that Priceline haul I had when Revlon had BOGOF on lip products!

Her dog whose called Snowy. I didn’t even realise how crazy his eyes were! But he’s  super cute and jumps super high that it’s unbelievable. When you sit down at the table to eat, he literally jumps onto your lap but doesn’t eat your food. See his teeth? It’s the exact same as her boyfriends ;)

It’s true when they say your pets are supposed to look like you…

I still have so many advertorials and posts to do. Bleh. My exam period is going to be so busy.

Did I tell you guys I’m heading over to New Zealand at the end of this month? I’m going over there for a week for skiing and snowboarding! It’s going to be so much fun! I can’t wait to take photos of all the beautiful scenery I’ve heard about!

Amateur photographer doin’ her thing ;)

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I’ll be back for most posts soon! In the meantime, if you guys see my site breaking up anywhere, please let me know. muah!

6 quirky facts about me*&

1.  I’m freaking super afraid of birds.

I hate wings on birds.. I don’t mind if they walk around but once they start flapping their wings, my heart pops out of my chest. I don’t know what I’m so afraid of, but I will start to run, or scream, or duck. -_-” Friends around me are all aware of this and most of them will scare the birds away for me ^__^”

If you’re in Sydney, you’ll know there’s alot of birds around Belmore Park and Circular Quay. These are the places you will never find me! I avoid walking in Circular Quay but I work near there so I have to walk around there a lot – I still make a massive detour just to stay away from the evil things.

2. I eat and drink with my pinky pointing to the air

I think this can relate to alot of other girls right? I don’t know why I do it, but it seems so natural. I didn’t even notice it until Mr.CG kept freaking holding my finger in place and saying “what’s this doing?” LOLOL!!

3. I get offended so freaking easily.

Like honestly. No joke. Especially on the internet. HAHA!! *eyes you.

4.  I don’t stare at people in the eye.

I mean, I seriously think its rude to? But some people think I’m rude to not stare back when we’re talking. I just feel super awkward when I look at someone when they’re talking to me! I mean, I will look at you when you’re not looking at me, but once you start to stare at me, I’ll look away….. anyone else relate?

5. I don’t normally get along with girls IRL.

I think being a blogger & make up “guru” really completes my life. I don’t get along with girls in real life (honestly, no joke). The majority of my friends are boys. I just find that they understand me so much better and girls are just natural bitchy and gossipy and hard to please. I have a few close girl friends, but a lot more closer guy friends.

Getting to know all you girls on here is definitely something which completes my life. ^__^” I love all you girls and really wish everyone could move here to Sydney with me! :D

6. I do not vomit!

haha! This is an extremely weird one. Everyone always saids “just stick your finger down your throat” and it just never works. I’ve done a lot of things “properly”, but it just doesn’t work. I have only ever thrown up three times in my life. Twice because I was sick, and once because my friend made me skull a few bottles of beer – which were too fizzy and made me puke =/

I’ve been hella drunk, and throwing it all back up, just doesn’t work for me!

This isn’t a tag, but I want to tag you guys to do it! I especially want to know more about some of you’s but feel free to do it even if you are not mentioned! :)

Stylesuzi

Monica Tang

Violet BeLeaux

Adeline Er

Yuk-Lui

So add me if you guys like: http://www.facebook.com/chaigyaru

I’m studying for the time because I have an assignment due on Monday, so let that keep you engaged til then :)

I recently discovered this extremely talented guy on youtube and have wasted so much of Mr.CG’s downloads on listening to his singing! I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do and please support him by subscribing to his channel.

Promise to be back with more good stuff! <3

There have been quite a few though, which just won’t leave my memories.. sometimes, they even almost seem too realistic to let go of.

There used to be days where I don’t get any bad dreams and I go to bed feeling very relaxed and comfortable – knowing that I would have a good sleep, but lately, the nightmares just won’t stop haunting me.. they even recur over and over and over again.

What does this mean?

What are they trying to get out of me?

They say that nightmares occur mainly when you are stressed or anxious about something – maybe there are some stressful events or changes in your life. I think this is true. Sometimes, when there is just so much going on around you, no matter how much you try to relax or ignore the stress you feel – just before you sleep, when it is quiet and lonely, you are bound to think about all the things you have to deal with tomorrow and you are left to feel stressed all over again.

These are some dreams I constantly have:

1)  Getting chased by someone closely.

Google saids:-  Chase dreams are one of several common dream themes, stemming from feelings of anxiety in your waking life. Flee and flight is an instinctive response to a physical threat in the environment. In these dreams, the scenario features you being pursued by an attacker, an animal, a monster or an unknown figure, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. Consequently, you run, you hide or you try to outwit your pursuer. Your actions in the dream parallel how you would respond to pressure and cope with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, your dream indicates that you have a tendency to run away and avoid the issue. Ask yourself who is chasing you, so that you can gain an understanding and insight of the source of your fears and anxieties.

I’ve been chased so many times before in my nightmares. These dreams are probably one of the most common dreams I have. The above saids that it shows that in real life, I do not face a problem, and I have a tendency to run away and avoid the issue. I guess I’ll have to agree. There are some things I just don’t want to face. There are some things I constantly try to ignore and pretend that everything is okay when it is clearly not.

It’s funny when you read about dream interpretations because its not even something you think about in reality. I mean, how often would you actually think about the things you actually do. I don’t think about the fact that I hide from problems in real life – I just do it. It really makes you wonder, is it really because you fear the result, is that why you end up feeling so anxious and pressured?

2) Cheating on my boyfriend

Google saids:- A dream about a cheating boyfriend, girlfriend or spouse is not about the spouse at all. Rather, the dream is most likely caused by insecurity, anxiety or guilt on the part of the dreamer. For instance, dreaming about catching your boyfriend, girlfriend or spouse with another partner probably indicates a deep seated anxiety on your part, either worry about your appearance, doubts about your attractiveness, or just generalized anxiety about the future. Likewise, dreaming that you are cheating on your spouse or significant other can result from guilt you feel about other issues. In some cases these feelings of guilt are not even related to your relationship.

Everytime I awake from this bad dream, I feel guilty as hell. I call up mr.CG and try to talk to him – even though he doesn’t know what I dreamt about ofcourse! I mean, everytime I wake up from this dream, I always feel like “I don’t want to do that! Why can’t I control my dreams??” After reading this article though, I actually feel a lot better reassured that it is indeed not my dream to cheat on the boyfriend, but rather the feeling of guilt of anything in real life. That makes more sense.

3) Dreaming of “ex” friends (I don’t even talk to or think about!) and helping them in the dream

Google didn’t come up with an interpretation for this one, but I’m not sure what it means at all. Are these people meant to symbolize something in my life? I’m sure they are not significant to me, but why do they appear randomly in my dream? I also offered one of my ex-friend to help her ride her bike away from some people who were chasing her in one of the dreams cause I know she’d was tired of riding the bike – and I had the same dream of me riding away from some people with the same route the previous night, I rode her to a hiding spot! What the hell?

I don’t know what this all means. I’m exhausted from thinking about these nightmares. Do dream catchers work? And if they do, how do they work?

It’s kinda cute actually, people can post you all these questions, and all you have to do is press “respond” and answer them! I know alot of gurus don’t use them because its so much like twitter – I mean, people can ask you questions on twitter anyway.. but I think it’s a more direct way of inviting others to ask questions of their choice!

I mean, how inviting does this look?

“Ask me anything”

Add me on http://www.formspring.me

hahaha!! Well, I guess it’s just another little thing. I love talking to my readers you know, and I love it when they ask me questions!! Don’t be afraid to talk to me if you haven’t already! I’m currently looking into purchasing an HD camcorder to start recording youtube tutorials, I realised that one of the main freaking reasons I’m so lazy when it comes to my youtube is because I can’t see what I’m doing when I’m looking at the camera!!!! I don’t have a freaking screen looking back at me to show me what I’m shooting!!

I’ve been looking into the following:

1. This cute littlee pink “chanel-inspired” quilted HD camcorder

Omg, they even have it in gold and white! *dies

Or, I actually don’t have another option. It’s too cute to miss.

Any ideas?

In real life, I’m very closed up and very unapproachable and unless I’ve seen you around for a while, understand what kind of person you are, I will not come up to you and basically have a proper conversation with you. There have been a few people in the past year whom I’ve actually become very close to, yet had chosen to ignore for a first few months I met them. I guess I’m just picky with friends – very picky. And I do realise, and know it sounds a little (okay maybe a little bit more) bitchy, but that’s what happens when you fall in and out of love too many times. You lose trust.

And when I say that, I don’t even mean in just a boy-girl relationship, I mean it in friendship, family, pets and any other relationship we have between living things around us.

I spoke to a girl at work yesterday – properly – and for the first time in about 3 month. I finally decided I’ll go talk to her and see what she’s really like and I realised I was able to get along with her. She was friendly and not at all the way I expected her to be!!!

In a way, she was very similar to me in such a way that we’re both very judgmental. We judge a book by its cover, judge a person by our first impression – which is essential the first two minutes of meeting someone – though I think I must admit, most of the time, I’m wrong about people and my first impressions are always far from who they really are!

I think though, even though I’m really picky with choosing who my friends are IRL, I’m still really willing to meet new people and really willing to find out what other people are like! I love socialising, I just hate getting too close…..

Who understands me? ;)